One leg at a time

Every time I get something moving in my life something else slows down, while this has always happend it has never been very annoying as it is right now. I maybe making lots of music and I have been working on film ideas and things of that sort and I have felt very productive but I have noticed that I am not as important in certain peoples lives as I used to be. I am trying to be as secretive as possible because I'd rather not talk about things Im not even sure about. Anyway back to the poit, I am in some sort of paradox where The one person I always relied on be around for me is no not speaking to me for no obvious reason. Out of no where it's like We've never spoken before, and im not the kind of person to confront people and I suppose I should be considering I would solve alot of problems I have which I never have many problems.

Point being I have this thing where I sit I let the wind take me where ever it happens to be going, I don't do much to change its course but I'm afraid I don't do something to change this wind I could loose someone very important to me.